A little Discouraged

I don't mean to have a pity party by any means tonight...but this clip art kinda describes how I feel right now...

 

 I absolutely love first grade, but this year is proving to be so difficult and half the time, I feel like I am just treading water everyday to get by. I am going to try to choose my words carefully, but I am just not happy teaching right now....Our district has these ridiculous math textbooks we use called Trailblazers...if anyone else uses them, let me know your feelings because I straight up hate it. The lessons are so boring and above the children and I know they want them to think analytically, but at this early in the year...come on' they need some fun! Then my grade level is not really getting along. We're kinda split down the middle, even on the playground, we stand away from each other. And I get the feeling, when we turn in our lessons plans and I see what they have us doing for reading and LA that they don't want to have any fun or even try to search for fun ways to enhance the topics. I have just about given up with their plans and every week, I search for my own activities (a lot from you awesome people!) to add to the lessons to make them more "first grade friendly." But that's just one topic and like I said, I don't want to go on and on. I'm just feeling a little down about teaching right now, but I am won't give up.